BMT: Chemo (Day -4)

From a chemo perspective, today is a quiet day.  Clark is only getting one chemical, Cytoxan, and that is from 8am to 10am.  Other than this, it’s just play, eat and sleep.  Effects from Cytoxan we won’t see until after day zero.

All week I have been lucky to spend so much time with Clark. When he is in a good mood (most of the time!) or when his adorable cherub face is sleeping, I get so much joy. I have also been fortunate to have such a loving husband who is somehow managing to work, spend time with Connor AND come visit me and Clark in the evenings (how does he do it?!).

But I have a confession to make…

With all the love I am surrounded by, I’m not as happy as I’d like to be. I miss my little man, Connor. We have been visiting on the phone most evenings, and Rosemary has been kind enough to send me photos of my wild angel.

But today, I got a day pass and I spent some overdue Mama time with him.  Patrick watched Clark and I took off and drank the freedom for a couple hours!

Clark’s day was quiet.  He took a long nap in the middle of the day, and otherwise was probably really glad to spend the time with his Daddy.  The two played with trains, fire engines, whistled at the nurses and smoked cigars.  At least that’s what Patrick tells me, but I’m a little skeptical.  I’m pretty sure Clark can’t whistle yet…

Connor’s day, on the other hand, was not quiet!  We got a chance to get out on a patio and drink milkshakes and enjoy the sunshine! We played “fishing” off the top bunk of Connor’s bed and Batman Lego and a million other games.  It was so much fun!

It was really nice to see him and be home again.  I wish I had time to shower, but getting laundry done was about all the time I could muster.  You take what you can get in these circumstances – and clean underwear was definitely a priority!!

We finished the day giving Clark a bath and ordering pizza. If we are lucky Patrick and I will fit in a movie (played on his laptop).  It’s nice to have a bit of “normal” in all this crazy.